Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Enough Restriction and my Dear Dad

Do I or don’t I have enough restriction? I keep asking myself that. Sometimes, I feel tight. Like in the morning or when I take my first bite of food at a meal. But then, the second, third, fourth bites go down much easier and I can actually over eat at times. I have to literally stop myself from over eating and I do so in fear that if I don’t I will PB, or hurt the band.

This is going very slowly for me. My second cousin who is the other bariatric surgeon at my hospital (he does not do lap band) says I am doing fine and thinks slow weight loss I is the way to go. I would like to see faster results. Especially when I see how fast some of you all are losing.

Stress is playing a big part on my concentration and weight loss at this point too. So I am not going to be too hard on myself. My dear, darling father is gravely ill. He is 89 and his health has declined drastically over the last 5 months. We are now trying to coordinate his care, whether it be at home with nursing, or in a nursing home. It is hell watching him go through this. I wish there was something I could do to make it all better.  This is a picture of us from a few years ago.


So, in the meantime, my priorities are with his care. And the goal for myself is to try to stay healthy so I can be there for him. Just last week I got a bad cold from being rundown.
I keep reading your blogs and love seeing what you are all up to. It is a nice relief from my reality if you know what I mean. I may not be able to post too often, but I am here.

8 comments:

  1. OH Linda... my heart goes out to you... I am too close to the pain and stress you are feeling.. my dad has a major health scare and my husband has an incurable cancer (with not good odds in his favor).. and I too am constantly challenging my restriction levels (tight in the morning and by afternoon and all of the stress dragons to slay.. I am ready to eat a horse).. Priorities first.. take care of yourself so you can take care of others. Meaning don't forget to take a moment to reenergize yourself so you can move on to take care of the bigger things in life.. big hugs to you..

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  2. Linda, sorry you are under this stress ~ hang in there! Give your Dad lots of love, hugs and kisses. We are here for you!! ;-)

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  3. Linda, You are doing great! 20 pounds in a little over 2 months is great progress and don't let your mind convince you otherwise!!

    We are all so different and our body's reaction shows that. I tend to lose fast in the beginning, but as I get closer to 200 I slow down (like no loss for months). In the past I have always quit after a couple months of getting stuck and in the back of my mind I am still afraid this will happen. I am actually jealous of those people who can maintain the steady (if slower) losses. To try and counteract this I am being a little more strict than normal, but I can already feel myself slipping. I can't wait until I get some restriction to help!

    If you are a little concerned about having good restriction maybe you can go in and have a tiny fill done. I have seen many people get .25 or even .1 ccs done. It might be worth trying if you feel that you can overeat.

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  4. You ARE doing great, and you're right, just stay healthy now...so sorry your family is all going through this. Great pic, you've got Dad's smile! ((hugs)) we know you're here.

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  5. As long as you're losing weight, your band is fine. Trust your doctor on this one. I'm sorry you're father is ill - my thoughts are with you.

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  6. Linda - so sorry to hear about your dad. I'm thinking about you. This is such a beautiful picture of you both. xoxo

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  7. That is a great picture! You dad looks like the kind of man that has wonderful stories to tell.

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  8. Hi Linda, catching up on my blog reading and am sorry to hear about your father. I know the stress plays a part in our success, but probably you would be REALLY using food right now without the band. Hang in there!

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