Friday, February 19, 2010

A Week Away...but not on vacation

I got back on-line today with Blogger for the first time in over a week. It has been a long week or so dealing with my Dad and his health issues. He was in the hospital for 6 days and has since been transferred to a Nursing/Re-hab facility. So, I think things may be looking up for him. Not sure at this point. The body only bounces back so much at 89! But he is trying.

Needless to say, I have not been concentrating on “Linda” much at all the past 10 days. My weight is actually up two lbs and I am really pissed off at myself. I have been eating all the wrong stuff. Lot’s of carbs and fatty stuff. Comfort food to ease the anxiety I have about my Dad. It is very easy to “eat around the band”. The last two days, I am concentrating on protein, (mostly fish) and vegetables and cutting the carbs and fat from the diet to see if this helps. It is also my TOM so, that may have some bearing on my weight gain.

I was so thrilled to be nominated for a “Beautiful Blogger” award by Tracy from Metamorphic Journey. It really warmed my heart to be thought of and I will try to keep the chain of nominating going when I have a chance to sit down for more than 10 minutes at the computer! There are so many of you out there who are “beautiful bloggers” and Tracy is one of them. She is very inspiring and has done a great job losing weight in a short amount of time because she is very, very focused. Something I need to be more of! And I will be…soon. Thanks again Tracy!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Survived my first PB! Woo Hoo!

Just had my first PB and it was gross. Soooo I thought I would share it with you all, since this seems the place to do so! Not that you asked!!  If you read my last post you know  that my Dad is very ill, home bound and being a bit of a difficult P.I.T.A. He pretty much only eats when either my sister or me cook something for him and serve it to him. No problem. My pleasure. If that is what makes him happy at this point I am here to do it.  So I went to the deli and picked up some nice Honey Ham, Super Sharp Cheddar and some nice bakery style bread and decided to make him a grilled ham and cheese. So, I am standing there assembling the H & C sandwich and decide to pop a piece of ham in my mouth….chew once or twice then swallow. What could be more normal right? WRONG! Maybe pre band that would be normal but not now. So, I first felt the pain, then the slimy part (eww) and then it happened. (yes I made it to the bathroom) Up it came. Just when I thought that would be it, and I resumed my kitchen duties, here it came again. Twice. Ugh. Not fun. I felt horrible afterward. I am glad I was home and not at a restaurant.

So, I sit here on my Dad’s home computer circa 1998 and write this to you. He only ate about two bites of the sandwich. Poor guy.

Anyway, I am heading home soon to share the whole experience with my husband. He just got home today from a week long business trip and I am sure he will be thrilled to hear my PB story too!

Thanks for letting me share...cause you know what they say; Sharing is Caring!

Enough Restriction and my Dear Dad

Do I or don’t I have enough restriction? I keep asking myself that. Sometimes, I feel tight. Like in the morning or when I take my first bite of food at a meal. But then, the second, third, fourth bites go down much easier and I can actually over eat at times. I have to literally stop myself from over eating and I do so in fear that if I don’t I will PB, or hurt the band.

This is going very slowly for me. My second cousin who is the other bariatric surgeon at my hospital (he does not do lap band) says I am doing fine and thinks slow weight loss I is the way to go. I would like to see faster results. Especially when I see how fast some of you all are losing.

Stress is playing a big part on my concentration and weight loss at this point too. So I am not going to be too hard on myself. My dear, darling father is gravely ill. He is 89 and his health has declined drastically over the last 5 months. We are now trying to coordinate his care, whether it be at home with nursing, or in a nursing home. It is hell watching him go through this. I wish there was something I could do to make it all better.  This is a picture of us from a few years ago.

So, in the meantime, my priorities are with his care. And the goal for myself is to try to stay healthy so I can be there for him. Just last week I got a bad cold from being rundown.
I keep reading your blogs and love seeing what you are all up to. It is a nice relief from my reality if you know what I mean. I may not be able to post too often, but I am here.