Do I or don’t I have enough restriction? I keep asking myself that. Sometimes, I feel tight. Like in the morning or when I take my first bite of food at a meal. But then, the second, third, fourth bites go down much easier and I can actually over eat at times. I have to literally stop myself from over eating and I do so in fear that if I don’t I will PB, or hurt the band.
This is going very slowly for me. My second cousin who is the other bariatric surgeon at my hospital (he does not do lap band) says I am doing fine and thinks slow weight loss I is the way to go. I would like to see faster results. Especially when I see how fast some of you all are losing.
Stress is playing a big part on my concentration and weight loss at this point too. So I am not going to be too hard on myself. My dear, darling father is gravely ill. He is 89 and his health has declined drastically over the last 5 months. We are now trying to coordinate his care, whether it be at home with nursing, or in a nursing home. It is hell watching him go through this. I wish there was something I could do to make it all better. This is a picture of us from a few years ago.
So, in the meantime, my priorities are with his care. And the goal for myself is to try to stay healthy so I can be there for him. Just last week I got a bad cold from being rundown.
I keep reading your blogs and love seeing what you are all up to. It is a nice relief from my reality if you know what I mean. I may not be able to post too often, but I am here.